Recently, whenever I turned on Netflix, I’ve felt this strange anxiety. I suddenly become hyper-aware of how much free time I have and how much of it whatever show/movie I pick will take up.
I think it’s because I don’t want to be disappointed and feel like I wasted my time. So, I just don’t bother trying new things. Even if I hear that something is good, I tend to avoid it because I have a habit of disliking super popular things.
Instead of watching a new show, I just turn on Netflix and re-watch an old favorite of mine. Cause I already like series x than at least I know I’ll have a good time. The problem is this has changed recently.
Nowadays, I opened Netflix, avoid the new content, click on a show that I have watched more times than I’m proud to admit, and then I will just turn it off after a couple minutes. And this isn’t just a problem with shows either. Any content that I am revisiting is starting to grow stale to me.
I stopped enjoying the comfort of wrapping myself up old content. Now, it feels like my life is slowly wasting away every time I turn on one of my favs. I feel stagnant. Every time I take a walk down memory lane with one of these shows, I realize just how much I haven’t accomplished.
It’s not like I haven’t achieved things, but anything that I failed to do since my last viewing comes to the forefront of my mind.
I have found that a good way to get over this problem though. When I share old content with my friends and family, those thoughts don’t surface.
I watched Boys Over Flowers years ago but it felt brand new watching it with my mother, I started rewatching Game of Thrones with my best friend, and playing through the Danganronpa series has been so enjoyable with my sister trying to guess the mysteries.
After I finish with these things, I think I’m going to avoid revisiting old content for a while. I’m already pushing myself to watch new things like Umbrella Acadamy, which I watched for the first time. (I loved it.) As they say, absence makes the heart grow fonder, so maybe after a much-needed break, the nostalgia won’t feel like its strangling me.
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